Strange things happened yesterday...firstly, I got attacked by a dog.
I was walking home, carrying my art folder (as you do) and suddenly I heard this woman shouting "Max...Max! Don't hurt her!" and I looked up to see this huge dog running at me! It looked like a staffy crossed with a boxer-terrier...very scary, and it's eyes were manic! I crossed over to the other side of the street, thinking it wouldn't follow me...
...it did.
So I backed up and then ran past it screaming (since dogs scare the shit out of me as it is)and then blocked it with my art folder as it tried to bite me!
I didn't even stop to say to this woman that I was OK. I just kept running.
And also...remember back in August?
I went to St.Ives and came across 'The Sugarbean' that little shop which was run by the good-looking American guy and his girlfriend, and then I've been having recurring dreams about it for the past four months or so...
I found out last night that recurring dreams are usually part of Post-Traumatic-Stress and they occur when the brain repeats a certain dream to bring closure of emotional pain, or to try and solve a problem. It also said that they're affecting your mental health and that I should see a shrink.
Joy.
But...this is the thing...
I realised what I need to bring closure to(four months too late...).
I realised that in the dreams...I never see his face.
Ever.
Because I couldn't remember it.
So, last night I was surfing away online, as you do, and I tapped in 'SugarBean St.Ives' and found the usual message saying 'Is This Your Site?' but this time I noticed something else.
A name.
His name.
The name I'd been wondering about for the past four months.
So, I searched him in google, and sure enough he was on facebook. I don't have a facebook (I don't want one, either) and he doesn't accept anyone but his friends anyway, so instead of signing up and getting back in touch...
...I stole his picture.
At least now I remembered his face.
And the weird thing is...I didn't have the dream last night. God, bring me closure! Let this be the thing I was looking for! I don't want these dreams anymore!